❥ Lost In Reverie

Chatted with someone for two hours last night.

Idk how much i can trust u, idk how much i should tell u.

But i still have so much to say and so many questions to ask.

♥ sheraine !

Dear You,

Thank u so much for having loved me so much and for cherishing the times we shared.
For remembering things so vividly, as though it just happened ytd, when in fact it’s four years ago.
For bringing such memories back to me like a patient regaining her memory.
For never cheated on me before.
For saying that u never loved any other girl more than me.
and u know what, i think i’ll believe u (:

I’m so so lucky to have been loved like that and I am very very touched.

But I’m sorry that I don’t believe in love any more.

I wish u all the very very best.

♥ sheraine !

Has anyone talked to u, about you, and make u feel that he/she understands u more than how u understand urself?

And, u are not even very close to that person.

It made me tear. Very shocking, enlightening and touching.

_____________________

The maid got dismissed today.

No, not my fault!

I tried to ask if we can still let her stay, but no.

They said shes too stupid.

I feel that its so unfair to her, got scolded ytd, got told that she’ll be given one week to prove herself.

Then, before she get the chance to, someone else tells her to go pack her bag.

And, and, and.

So many things.

Feels like its too, too much to bear.

Can’t I just run away?

♥ sheraine !

I had a high fever ytd, about 40.4 degrees!

I could have became stupid. (Can cause brain damage)

Fever over 40 degrees celsius can be life threatening too. My god.

The worse thing is, for two days, I didn’t even know that I was having fever.

Just wondering why I felt super giddy and kept having headaches.

Even blacked out for a few seconds twice or thrice.

Once it was so bad I kind of fainted, banged into the ladder of the bed (I didn’t even know what I banged into until my sis told me afterwards)

I managed to get myself to lie down on the bed after a while.

Then I kinda K.O. When I opened my eyes, an hour had passed.

I keep sweating profusely suddenly, and tremble non-stop the next moment.

I also have throat inflammation.

The doctor gave me 7 days mc.

But I’ll go back to school once I feel well.

The new maid is here.

Okay i know this sounds really mean, but. I think she might be a little ‘low IQ’.

My sis and grandpa think so too.

My aunt came over today to lecture her, cause she doesn’t seem to be putting in effort the few days that she’s been here.

When asked “Can u cook?”

She would say “Yes, Ma’am (:“

BUT. Apparently she can’t really cook porridge. and rice.

And I’m referring to plain ones!

Not requesting her to cook those of restaurant standards!

Ask her to do anything, she would smile and say yes.

2 seconds later, she would go and do something else, maybe even the opposite.

Real life example A) My sis asked her to cut an apple for her, leave the skin on.

“Yes (:“

And she immediately cut the skin off.

My sister was fuming.

Real life example B) I asked her to peel an orange for me.

Worried that she might not understand much english, my grandpa repeated in malay.

“Yes (:“

and she got me a glass of orange juice.

Infuriating.

The funniest thing is that when my aunt shouts at her, she would reply with a loud, confident and happy “Yes ma’am! (:“

Maids these days are either too smart or too dumb, aren’t they?

But well, if she can learn, I would still prefer her to those scheming ones of cos.

Sorry if I’d been super mean, I honestly think she is actually a nice person, but wouldn’t such things piss u off too?

♥ sheraine !

한때 정말 사랑했는데 oh

다른 여자들의 다리를 훔쳐보는

니가 너무너무 한심해

더이상 못참을것같아

차라리 홀가분해 너에게 난 과분해

내 사랑이라 믿었는데

난 너땜에 울며 지새던 밤을 기억해

날 놓치긴 아깝고 갖기엔 시시하잖니

있을때 잘하지 너 왜 이제와 매달리니

속아준 거짓말만해도 수백번

무릎꿇고 잡을 수 있니

아님 눈 앞에서 당장 꺼져

이제 정말 상관 안할게 비켜줄래

이제와 울고불고 매달리지마

I don’t want everyone to know what this is about, therefore it’s in korean.

No hints.

Only a few of u know what it means, and too bad if u dont! 😉

♥ sheraine !

The death of yet another loved one.

No, not very close, but i loved her all the same.

I’m scared, I really am.

I wish i can run away and not experience such things.

But, i know this is life and i have to grow up.

I know that more will leave in time to come, I know that there’s nothing we can do.

But I’m still very scared.

HOW.

D:

♥ sheraine !